God slapped me in the face this weekend. I've been looking for love in the wrong places, searching for something that doesn't exist. See, I've been trying to replace Godly love with an earthly love. And it just ain't working. Friday night, I went to see The Sacrifice at my friend's church. It was amazing, and after the play I realized the completeness of God's love for me. He doesn't care that I'm not perfect. And the right man for me is one He will put in my life. I've been looking for a man that will complete me, but I'm already made whole through God's love for me. I had forgotten that. I had been sailing my own ship and not letting the Lord steer me through the tough waters I faced.
I don't talk about my faith much. Probably because I share an office with a complete nut case who will tell anyone who will listen the end is coming soon. (Beware false prophets friends.)
I have been praying for God to put the right man in my life for the last three weeks or so. I do love someone dearly. He tells me he doesn't see me in that light, but his actions tell me another story altogether. I'm confused and confounded by that man. But I still love him. He hurt me badly and I forgave him. That night as I watched the greatest love story ever told unfold around me, tears streamed down my face. Then a still, quiet voice told me not to give up. One day the love I have to give will be returned. And I'm not sure who He has in mind for me but I have faith He has a plan.
And we all know my plan sure isn't working.
"We love because He first loved us." 1 John 4:19
I have to accept God's love first, and let him give me a partner who loves Him too. For those of you who pray, please pray that God will continue to guide me and I will continue to let Him.
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