Cheaters Never Prosper

Okay - so I heard back from the cutie patootie from the tire store today. He still has a girlfriend so I'm curious as to why he keeps sweating me for a lunch date. I believe he has no intentions of leaving his girlfriend but is maybe looking for something on the side.

I so don't want to be that girl. Is it too much to ask to find a man who loves and respects me? Apparently I'm just not able to find that man.

Don't get me wrong, the dude from the tire store is a nice guy and I'd like to be his friend, but that's where it will have to stay. I'm not going to knowingly be someone's mistress. That's not who I am or how I was raised.

I've been thinking a lot about this lately, and I'm not going to find the man that's right with me until I'M right with me. There are many things in my life I could change. I'm currently thinking about going back to school, and changing jobs. I really want to get back into my own place and a new job will help me get there. Also, I'm searching for a church home. Oh, and doing the whole gym thing.

Once I'm the Baily I want to be, I'll find the man who's just as happy with me as I am. That's not to say I don't love myself. I do. But once I get to where I want to be I'll be much better off.

I'm ready to give someone my all. But maybe they can sense that I can be more. I'm working hard to becoming a better person. And when I reach my goals, nothing will be able to hold me back. I have to keep my hopes up. I'm sure there are more heart breaks headed my way. But I'm damn sure not going to break some other poor girl's heart and get nothing out of the deal. No dice friends. No dice.

I will find a man that loves me and respects me. I'm worthy of that. But a man who wants less than my all (or only wants my ass) is not worthy of me.